Happy Birthday Joshua

It is amazing how in the blink of an eye a lifetime unfolds before you. I am sitting here marveling at the son I gave birth to twenty nine years ago today. The appearance of him in my life changed the course of my journey forever, and I could not change one moment of it, because if I did, I would not be sitting here full of so much love and pride for my first born son. It is hard to believe that the love you feel on the day your child is born could possibly be more than it is, yet with each new phase of development the strength of that love deepens daily to depths you could never imagine. Even through the trying times that love gets you through and you just know that everything will be OK as long as he is OK. And today, I know Josh will leave to film his first feature film in a week, he lives in his own little apartment, he sits as I type surrounded by his closest friends, his brother and his beloved Grammy and Ginny at Rutts having his favorite meal, breakfast and I am so happy for him. The only thing that could make this day better for me is if I were there to share it in person. This is the first time in twenty nine years I have not been with Josh on his birthday and I am making peace with letting go.

Happy Birthday, Joshua David, I love you more than words can possibly express and I am here wishing you a great day, a wonderful year and a fabulous life.